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MY NIECE REBECA DOES THE RUBET CUBE

MY NIECE REBECA DOES THE RUBET CUBE.

An Angelic Harmony

I hear love softly singing to me
An angelic harmony!
high notes, so sublime
low notes that make
me forget about all time.

the song has ended now
but the haunting echoes
of its delicious mind melodies remains

the innermost part of my soul
longs to hear the sweet refrain
that washes away all the pain

Please...God let me hear
love's sweet harmony...once again!!

This is a photograph of my daughter Alexandra, we call her Alex or Bally, she is 19 and soon to be 20 Dec. 31st (a new years eve baby). I am so proud of her, but I sometimes worry that she stresses to much over other people to try and help them. She is going to College full time and working part time. Her goals are to become a realtor and also write children's books. She has her own place, all by her self, except me and my youngest daughter Michellie are temporarily staying with her until I find a place of my own.

Chicken Run...

Tangled in masses of confusion
Rememebering that life was never for fun
its all an illusion
we never really have a conclusion
its a delsuion
we end up contusioned
it feels like a foregone conclusion
and seems like an optical illusion
but all we really need is God's way of life's transfusion
we all allow rediffusion
by the time you finish reading this,
you'll have a lot of confusion
rhyme or reason
even through all of the seasons
just when you think your day has won
life throws you another fast one
you can mock the sun
scream and holler your life is done
then you think you just had a rerun
so you get a call from your loved one
then to them your number one
so maybe it was all worth it in the long run...
silly me, its just one of those chicken runs

So Faraway ~ Deciated to my Baby~

My Daughter Jill

I am posting a blog about my amazing daughter Jill, she is my oldest and this post is to let her know how proud I am of her. She has reached so many goals in her live, and overcome disasters, addictions, and hard turns in her life, she is only 25 yrs old.

I am no longer with her, although she remains in my heart forever, she is 10 states away making a living and doing fansatic. She is struggling alittle but surviving. I wish she knew how much she is loved by me. I think of her daily and pray that things work out the way she would like them to be. I just wish I could do more for her to help her succeed. I wanted to give her so much and yet I am not in the position to do that, in the poistion I am in. I love you Jilly and miss you soooo much !!!

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

My Lifestyle in a Pill Bottle

Pills run my life, every 4 hours, if I don't take my medications I am in pain to the extreme. Sunday morning around 12 am I started with a migraine headache triggered by spasms in my neck. By 8am I called my Mom to take me to the emergency room because I could stop dry heaving, because my neck and head hurt so bad. My Mom was going 50mph in a 35mph zone, causing me to puke even more. they took me to the back room where it was dark but my head and nausea continued. They finally started an IV and gave me darocet and fenanol and it took some of the edge off, so they sent me home (My Boyfriends house).

I told my Boyfriend (Ted) that I needed to go back to the hospital because I could feel the head, spasms and nausea coming back, so he drove me there and this time they gave me injections. One was tordal and they other was vistual, it took all the symptom's away and I felt so much better. I had spent from 8am until 6pm in the hospital emergency room. I get headaches often now due to the spasms in my neck and shoulders, sometimes I wonder if anyone believes me...;(

Money...Is it the air we breathe?

I have been on the Internet, trying my best on getting traffic flow through my 6 blogs through Google and 1 with MySpace, 1 with yahoo 360 and other sites just trying to get noticed. Its been crazy on how hard I have worked to get any cash flow, and today so far I have made a big 9 cents, and yet yesterday I made 66 cents. I have made as much as 3 dollars in one day struggling through that to make it happen. Laugh if you must, but am I the only lame one out there that doesn't make shit for dollars? shall I give up? whats the strategy? is it making friends, affiliates, bloggers...WHAT...and does anyone even read my blogs? HELLO...am I alone here? tell me what the heck I am doing wrong....I am open for advice...;(