Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

My Lifestyle in a Pill Bottle

Pills run my life, every 4 hours, if I don't take my medications I am in pain to the extreme. Sunday morning around 12 am I started with a migraine headache triggered by spasms in my neck. By 8am I called my Mom to take me to the emergency room because I could stop dry heaving, because my neck and head hurt so bad. My Mom was going 50mph in a 35mph zone, causing me to puke even more. they took me to the back room where it was dark but my head and nausea continued. They finally started an IV and gave me darocet and fenanol and it took some of the edge off, so they sent me home (My Boyfriends house).

I told my Boyfriend (Ted) that I needed to go back to the hospital because I could feel the head, spasms and nausea coming back, so he drove me there and this time they gave me injections. One was tordal and they other was vistual, it took all the symptom's away and I felt so much better. I had spent from 8am until 6pm in the hospital emergency room. I get headaches often now due to the spasms in my neck and shoulders, sometimes I wonder if anyone believes me...;(

Money...Is it the air we breathe?

I have been on the Internet, trying my best on getting traffic flow through my 6 blogs through Google and 1 with MySpace, 1 with yahoo 360 and other sites just trying to get noticed. Its been crazy on how hard I have worked to get any cash flow, and today so far I have made a big 9 cents, and yet yesterday I made 66 cents. I have made as much as 3 dollars in one day struggling through that to make it happen. Laugh if you must, but am I the only lame one out there that doesn't make shit for dollars? shall I give up? whats the strategy? is it making friends, affiliates, bloggers...WHAT...and does anyone even read my blogs? HELLO...am I alone here? tell me what the heck I am doing wrong....I am open for advice...;(

The Cutting Edge

What gives a human soul the thought to self destruct? the desire to feel pain inflicted onto them. Most of time I feel numb, I just want to feel something, whether it be love, anger, destruction or pain. And then I choose to stay numb, by using anything to not feel anything. I wonder how about I began to become the way that I am. Was it my childhood lifestyle, my past relationships? maybe Karma if anyone believes in that.
I've become my own worse emeney, cutting, straving, and self pity, I grovel, and scream and cry. No I don't think the world owes me anything, I just feel the way I do because my emotions take over. It isn't me, its someone else, its a "I dont feel, or want to feel anything, so just leave me be". I want to leave this life of mine, but I wouldn't do it by drowning, I have a fear of drowning, or maybe I should and face my fear. I want to sleep and never wake up, cut myself and watch me bleed. I am not one to faint of the site of blood, I am a retired Nurse. I ask myself what there is left in this life of mine, and I have not come up with any answers, so I just cut, take pills, and cry...

Looking for sponsers for my blog

The best way of making money on a blog is through sponsership, your blog doesn't get a ton of traffic. Your blog doesn't display great contextual ads. Or maybe you don't want to use contextual ads because you feel it devalues the overall of your blog.

I seem to realize that sponsers help bring cash flow with not much effort.

Now what?
Lots of people make money with contextual advertising, particulary with Google AdSense. But there's way more people who don't earn much of anything from Google AdSense or other advertising options like "Text Link Ads" and "Performacing".

Mastering contextual advertising isn't rocket science, but it is difinitely takes some effort. And there's an insane amount of resources out there (some good, some bad) on how to maximize the success of Google AdSense and other programs.

Affiliate marketing works well for quite a few people, but there's also a curve. It takes time to figure out, and there are a ton of options with companies like "Commission Junction, PayDotCom and Click bank".

The best way of making money with a blog is through sponsership (Oh Yeah, I mentioned that already).

1.You can hand-pick sponsers and build real relationships. With afflilate marketing you do get to pick what ads you show, but it's not the same as targeting specific sponsers you absolutely want to work with and actually person-to-person relationships can be of great value in developing your blog, finding other partners and growing your network.

2. You can display sponsership on your blog in a number of ways. A sponsership can be almost anything - a link in your posts, co-branding on the site, an advertisement, special content, a contest, etc... There's a ton of different ways you can execute a sponsership, and that makes them very interesting. You can figure out what your audience really wants to see, and work with sponsers to develop content, advertising and ideas that make sense.

3. You can negotiate payment options. Sponsorships can be paid for in a bunch of different ways: page views, clickthroughs, monthly, etc. The control and flexibility stay in your hands. For example, if you’re running an online contest, you might get paid for the implementation and during the life of the contest. I prefer monthly payments since they’re the easiest for everyone to understand.

4. You don’t have a huge learning curve to deal with. There’s a minimal learning curve with sponsorships. Find a sponsor, decide on the type of sponsorship and negotiate the price. You won’t see a million websites selling you $19.99 info products on, “how to maximize sponsorship opportunities with your blog.” That’s because sponsorships are so flexible and open, and dependent on real relationships, you can’t develop a “best practices system for everyone.”
5. You don’t need an uber-popular blog to get sponsors. There’s a lot of opportunity out there for smaller blogs to find sponsors. You might not get VISA or some Fortune 100 company involved, but lots of smaller companies could benefit from blog sponsorships. I’ve got a sponsor who I’ve very much enjoyed working with, and although I’d love Instigator Blog to be in the Technorati 100, I don’t think that’s going to happen! Still, with the right audience and reasonable traffic numbers, you can find a great sponsor.

getting sponsers will take time. It's not very easy as throwing up some contextual ads or afflilate marketing links. But just because you can put ads on your site in 5 minutes doesn't mean they'll make you any money.




The Human element of sponsership is the key. But Build relationships with people (which you already do as an extension of blogging) and sponsership will return more than just monetary rewards over time.

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Harvest Rewards

The influence of each action continues long after the action
has been completed. The power of each thought resonates far
into the future.

Think and act as if each thing you do will start a chain
reaction. Because that's exactly what will happen.

Exercise control over the big, obvious issues in life and
you'll have some measure of success. Learn also to control,
direct and focus all the thousands of little things that few
people ever even think about, and your success will be great
indeed.

Each tiny little fraction of a moment is an opportunity to
make a difference. Bundle all those opportunities together
in the service of your goals, and they will bring
spectacular results.

With each and every thing you do, with each thought you
think, with every word you speak, you are planting seeds.
Those seeds continue to grow, long after the moment has
passed.

When a positive, purposeful attitude permeates your life,
those seeds you plant will develop into powerful, enduring
expressions of your most authentic self. Give your best to
each moment, and you'll harvest the rewards over and over
again.

Homeless and Poverty

Two trends are largely responsible for the rise in homeless over the past 20-25 years: a
growing shortage of affordable rental housing and a simultaneous increase in poverty. Below is
an overview of current poverty and housing statistics, as well as additional factors contributing to
homeless. A list of resources for further study is also provided.
POVERTY
homeless and poverty are inextricably linked. Poor people are frequently unable to pay for
housing, food, childcare, health care, and education. Difficult choices must be made when
limited resources cover only some of these necessities. Often it is housing, which absorbs a high
proportion of income that must be dropped. Being poor means being an illness, an accident, or a
paycheck away from living on the streets.
In 2005, 13.3% of the U.S. population, or 38,231,521 million people, lived in poverty. Both the
poverty rate and the number of poor people have increased in recent years, up from 12.5% or 1.1
million in 2003 (U.S. Bureau of the Census, 2005). 36% of persons living in poverty are
children; in fact, the 2004 poverty rate of 17.6% for children under 18 years old is significantly
higher than the poverty rate for any other age group.
Two factors help account for increasing poverty: eroding employment opportunities for large
segments of the workforce, and the declining value and availability of public assistance.
Eroding Work Opportunities
Media reports of a growing economy and low unemployment mask a number of important
reasons why homeless persists, and, in some areas of the country, is worsening. These
reasons include stagnant or falling incomes and less secure jobs which offer fewer benefits.
While the last few years have seen growth in real wages at all levels, these increases have not
been enough to counteract a long pattern of stagnant and declining wages. Low-wage workers
have been particularly hard hit by wage trends and have been left behind as the disparity between
rich and poor has mushroomed. To compound the problem, the real value of the minimum wage
in 2004 was 26% less than in 1979 (The Economic Policy Institute, 2005). Although incomes
appear to be rising, this growth is largely due to more hours worked – which in turn can be
attributed to welfare reform and the tight labor markets. Factors contributing to wage declines
include a steep drop in the number and bargaining power of unionized workers; erosion in the
value of the minimum wage; a decline in manufacturing jobs and the corresponding expansion of

When you set out to cause harm to others, you will harm
yourself even more. If your intend is to deceive, you will
find that you have succeeded in cheating yourself.

Make your purpose to give, and you will end up receiving
something of real and lasting value. When your goal is to
teach, there is much that you will learn.

When you sincerely appreciate others for who they are, you
will be genuinely admired for who you are. Act with respect
in each encounter, and you will be well respected.

The motives that you direct toward others will, without fail
and without exception, affect you as well. You cannot escape
the consequences of your own intentions, so make those
intentions positive.

intend the very best for all of the world around you, and
you will benefit greatly as well. Seek to give nourishment
and support to life, and you will grow stronger with each
passing moment.

What you give to and wish upon your world determines what
comes into your life. Give your very best at all times, and
that is exactly what you'll get.

For sale 1903 St Louis Built by George Dorris

My Dad is selling his Fathers 1903 St Louis, it has been in the family for over a hundred yrs. I have search through the internet to find information on this runabout built by George Dorris and only one page came up. If you are interested in this 1903 St Louis, please email me and remember that this car has NOT been restored, it is in its orginal condition and due to aging the paint has cracked. My email is (teri432004@sbcglobal.net) I dont have any idea on a price to list this car of my Dads, if you can give me some ideas then email me. Thanks again !!!

Moon is a memory

It's quiet here with no one to talk to
No one to listen to
No one to hear me speak
I have some time alone to think and meditate
And draw upon the times that I have lived
And the lives of all those whom I have know
And draw strength from them dear
I swallow my time
And in this quiet solitude remember the closeness of time
The arguing
The loudness and strife
The quiet times and the sweet respite of relaxing in my silenced mind.
The evening drawn tight around my shoulders
It is dark outside
And in here the moon is a memory

Thrifty Store Adventure

My daughters and I took a trip to the thrift store to look for costumes, what do you think of our outfits? please leave a comment and tell us what you think...;)

Don't you love to just go into a thrift shop and try on clothing like this?


The Glasses make the picture perfect, what do you think?


should we go to the bank looking like this?


The thrift shop we went to, you could barely move around. It was so packed with clothing, shoes, glasses, coats, and jewlery. We had a blast and the woman that owns the store allowed us to try on just about anything we wanted. It was a moment to always remember. What are you dressing up as is on Halloween? can you guess which one is mee?

Information and help with my blogs

It amazes to me how complicated placing ads into my blog is for advertising. I know it can be more simpler, I have not quite got the Knack for it just yet, but I am learning each day. Today I have been searching for sponsors on my blogs. If your interested you can email me @ teri432004@sbcglobal.net, I’ve been on disability, and Workers Compensation.
I am learning through internet, subscribers and other resources. I feel like I am a slow learner, some of this doesn't make any sense to me. For one thing, what exactly is incoming and out going links, I know that incoming links are more important than out coming links. I wish I had a tutor to explain all of the questi0ons that are rattling within my mind, I find that I am fascinated in blog and web designing, sounds so interesting to me, please take the time to read my other blogs listed to the right, I need some feedback on exactly what the heck I am doing. Thank you !!!